Monday, January 25, 2010

Martial Arts Love Triangle?

I'm not really the cheating kind. I've never been able to juggle two men at a time and never had the inclination to work at acquiring that skill. I'm very loyal and committed to most everything I love. But, I may be cheating this week...by going back to an ex without telling the current one.

Yep, I'm headed back to my old martial arts Dojo and my original Sensei. And no, I haven't told Tai Chi guy anything about this yet...in fact, I've been a little absent from his class over the last few months. Very mixed feelings, not sure what to expect. But I learned something really important tonight. My old gi pants don't fit...in a really bad, I've eaten way too much kind of way.

Why go back? Well, a good friend and fellow class mate wanted to go back and take their martial conditioning class, which really does kick your butt in a good way. And she convinced me to try it out as well. I do miss the sweating, hitting, kicking and occasional grunting. And I miss the effect on the size of my hips and waist. So, I agreed to go take the conditioning classes only...or that was my original plan.

What I didn't expect was the Dojo's change in schedule and classes that left me with only one alternative...go back to the regular classes. So tomorrow night, I step back onto the mat (although not back into the pants) and we'll see what happens. I still want to take my Tai Chi classes so I'm hoping that the combination of the two will be a nice mix of hard and soft skills, as well as sweating and breathing.

I may be inspired, I may be challenged, and hopefully I'll sweat at the dojo. I may even get to grapple or punch some really big guy. And, who knows, maybe this is the year that I learn to juggle two men...or at least two martial arts classes.

Monday, January 18, 2010

Looking Forward



Each year I resolve not make New Year's resolutions. I prefer, instead, to think of setting goals for the months ahead. Kind of like taking stock and thinking about you want to order for the spring, summer and into fall. For me, goals are more organic and often beg for re-writing, revising and re-evaluating. Resolutions--not so much. They are, by nature, more rigid, with an official start date (January 1) and the almost inevitable decline that follows.

Last year, some of my goals included writing more, and breaking out of the creative rut I had found myself dwelling in. I started the year off slow, but by mid-summer things began to spiral into control and into focus. It started with a decision to take a sabbatical from Mirage, the dance troupe to which I dedicated a great deal of time and energy. That small step quickly turned into an official resignation from the troupe after eight and a half years of involvement. I made conscious choices to stop over scheduling and over booking myself. Instead, I picked events and performances that kept me more focused and inspired.

I joined an Artist's Way group with the intention of writing more--but much to my delight discovered I wanted to draw, paint and work with pottery. Most of all, I learned to really listen to my inner artist and inner child. I stepped away from people who were negative and sapped my creative juices and instead surrounded myself with people who are enthusiastic, encouraging and inspiring.

A friend of mine said that I've always been able to grow even in rocky soil, but imagine what I could do if I were planted in rich, nurturing, fertile ground instead. Well, I can imagine that now and I see a year ahead filled with joy, inspiration, love and eternal gratitude.

And what are my goals for this year? Quite simple--I plan to take the seeds that the universe planted for me this last fall and winter and watch them bloom!